I have wasted a lot of my life going in and out of relationships, with only a few that I am thankful for. I am Neglecting my friends in the process, I have lost a hell of a lot of them doing so. I am going to focus on myself now. I just want to be happy and content with who I am a person so I can hopefully keep the great friends I am making now.
It’s going to be a hard road now, when the lonely nights kick in and all I want is to cuddle someone I am going to have to settle for my own comfort. That is the thing that scares me the most. The second thing that is kind of frustrating in a sense is the fact this time of year makes it so difficult to be content by being alone because christmas is a time to share with loved ones.
I have very little family due to them living all so far away and the ones who are nearby neglect my immediate family all the time. This Christmas will be spent with just my mumma and me. It makes me kind of sad. This last month of the year is going to be a tough one.
sext: the air smells like honeysuckle and fresh dirt; meet me in the driveway so we can sit in absolute silence, listening to gentle echoes of the 1 a.m. train accompanied by the rapturous humming of my neighbor’s koi pond.
i’m fed up of my flat mates moaning about noise, its a saturday night, neither of you work on a sunday so why does it matter that we are having a nice time fuck off you pathetic little dicks :/ You know, I’m fed up of keeping the peace piss off! I never complained about people coming back late, it didn’t bother me because we live in student accommodation. Its expected!
I had an amazing night with my friends I met some awesome people and hung out with even more awesome people . I had such a nice night! I need to get my own place I’m fed up with people being knobs you know.